I read recently that anger is possibly a secondary emotion that is expressed because of an underlying suppressed emotion. Normally to indicate the suppression of another emotion like fear, frustration or resentment.
I’ve spoken about fear often. But hardly resentment.
Because I didn’t think it mattered to me. I didn’t think my anger could be based on resentment because I felt that would be wrong.
To admit being resentful is hard. We are always told not to be selfish, angry or resentful because they are bad emotions, so to admit to any of these makes me feel guilty.
Well screw that guilt.
In order to let go of my resentment I need to acknowledge that it’s there in the first place.
I need to let go of it because I do not want to become a bitter person who only looks through a lens of negativity and resentment (and let’s be honest, living life like that is hard)!
Below is MY acknowledgement of all that I hold resentment towards looking at the past and present and the purpose of sharing is to let go of it all so I can give myself the closure I require.
I’ve made it as personal as possible to let go of as much as possible.
In order to let go I’ve put it in the past tense purposefully.
It’s gone.
In the past.
I held resentment.
I held resentment towards you for hurting me and not saying sorry.
I held resentment towards me because I didn’t protect myself better.
I held resentment towards you because I trusted you.
I held resentment towards me because I didn’t trust myself.
I held resentment towards you because you manipulated me.
I held resentment towards me because I allowed myself to be manipulated.
I held resentment towards you because I did things when I really didn’t want to.
I held resentment towards me for being so weak and not saying no.
I held resentment towards you for me taking on your responsibilities.
I held resentment towards me for taking on your responsibilities.
I held resentment towards you for being so weak.
I held resentment towards me for expecting you to be strong.
I held resentment towards you for not making me a priority.
I held resentment towards me for not feeling worthy.
I held resentment towards you for leaving me.
I held resentment towards me for letting you go.
I held resentment towards you for using me to make yourself feel better.
I held resentment towards me for not feeling good enough.
I held resentment towards you for not loving me.
I held resentment towards me for not loving myself.
I held resentment because you lied.
I held resentment because I lied.
I held resentment for not taking opportunities when I should have.
I held resentment for not speaking when I should have.
I held resentment for not being smart enough.
I held resentment for not being light enough.
I held resentment for not being beautiful enough.
I held resentment for not being good enough.
I held resentment for not being strong enough.
I held resentment for not being spontaneous.
I held resentment for not standing my ground.
I held resentment for not being heard.
I held resentment for feeling angry.
I held resentment for feeling guilty.
I held resentment for feeling hateful.
I held resentment for feeling jealous.
I held resentment for feeling unloved.
I held resentment towards life for being unfair.
I held resentment.
…And I released resentment.